& the incessant forwards and the friendships,
and the nasty cafeteria food and the calls to each other complaining about crushes.
Somewhere between the phone calls to old friends and the "I miss you's"and the "I love you's",
and the "What are we doing tonight's" and somewhere between all of the changing and growing.
Somewhere between the classes and the skipping classes, and the studying for tests,
& the pretending to study for tests and the downright not studying for tests, I forgot.
I forgot what high school is all about. I forgot what it meant to cry.
I forgot that pretending to be happy doesn't make you happy.
And that pretending to be smart doesn't make you smart.
I forgot that you can't just forget the past in fear of the future. I forgotthat you can't control falling in love.
And that you can't make yourself fall in love. I learned that I can love.
I learned that it's okay to mess up, and it's okay to ask for help and it's okay to feel like crap.
I learned it's okay to complain and whine to your friends for the whole day.
I learned that sometimes the things you want most you can't have.
I learned that the greatest thing about high school isn't the parties or the hook-ups, it's the friendships, which mean taking chances.
I learned that the things we want to forget are the things which we most need to talk about.
I learned that letters from your friends are the most important thing.
And that sending cards to your friends make you feel better.
But, basically, I learned thatmy friends - old and new - are the most important people to me in the world,
& withoutthem, I wouldn't be who I am today.